looking forward

i am always looking forward everyday that i may see you again
so my heart will be glad again
and i'll be seeing your beautiful face and your warmth smile...:)

hope

i hope that God will hear my prayers and let me have you in my life
i dont know how can i classify this feelings i feel
the only thing i know for now is that you make me glad and life is simply much happier with you in it...
friends or more than friends, however it takes, i'll be glad :)

wish

if there's one thing that I wish as of this moment, it is to be with you
to know you better and to make you fall in love with me as much as I am falling for you...:)

11.20.10

Thanks for your smile...
Thanks for the attention you are giving me...
I am missing you each day
You are like my antidote to my mood-swings or not-so-good day...
I found peace everytime I see you
You calm my world
Feels like its lighter, brighter...
Suddenly I can understand the meaning of the songs I am hearing..

mystery..:)

You are my sanity in this chaotic world I live

Suddenly there's peace when you passed by

Suddenly my world brighten up.

Crazy as it seems...can't find any answer

all I know is that I find my peace in your eyes..

I miss your smile

Its undeniably true that you makes me happy whenever I see you or whenever you smile at me. But I dont know what happened why you suddenly stop smiling. Dont you know that I am quite affected? DOnt you know that it bothers me to see you not smiling at me? Did I done something wrong or did I offend you?
I miss your smile.
Dont you know that you can complete my day with just 1 smile from you?
Dont you know you can makes me happy with that single smile of yours?
I just wish you'll smile at me again...
Just a smile is all I ask and nothing more..
Coz I know where I stand and I know the distance between us...
Just treat me just one of the many people you encounter and give me a smile...
just a smile and its enough for me...
dont be selfish, I am just a girl who wants to see her crush's smile and thats all...
I miss you

angel that i was crazy about ages ago

I know you're my angel ages ago, and i was crazy over you and my life is incomplete without you but dont wanna wake up alone anymore, i believe that someone will walk to my door and i'll give all the love in the world. I;m still hoping for you but i can see no hope with this..you're so far now, i cannot reach you nor cant connect to you anymore... you never know what you miss coz you have shut me off to your life but i cannot blame you. maybe you really dont like me and i am no good for you. anyways, thats what love can do and i still see you as my angel coz i am though i tried to hide, still crazy over you and i guess i am still incomplete without you until i finally be awake of this love nightmare that i am having right now. i still want you but i cannot hold on anymore...can i just wish a final goodbye? til then...my angel

kinda..

That's the same face that lighten up my day...the same person who makes me smile but its the same feeling I feel that never reciprocated. Dont know why I keep comng back to him, maybe he put some kind of spell on me...haha..or he captures me hard enough using his mesmerizing eyes and boyish smile..

I keep on wondering until when he's going towonder around and realize that I am still here waiting for him after all these years..after he had turned his back on me, after he has denied me of his attention and halt our friendship.

or I just wish this useless feelings I have for him will disappear and I may able to find a rightful replacement of him and got to spend my whole life living a happy and worthwhile life with that so-called-wonderful-replacement-of-my-unreciprocated-love so that I may able to bury this memories behind and embrace my new life with my new one, whose more worthy of my love.:)

27april2010

I've come this far yet I didn't have what I suppose to have but take heart, I said to myself...God, has a better plan for me. He has prepared a better future for me than I have prepared or plan for myself. Of course, it is quite disappointing and heart breaking but still I dont want to lose hope to Him. There's indeed sometime that I question my capabilities, my intelligence and my resourcefulness. And often times I question Gods plan for me because its kinda very discouraging, hurtful, degrading and frustrating what I am experiencing. But I am thankful that I have never lose hold of my faith. I just lift everything to God and just wait His hand to form whatever life He wants me to have. I told myself, I will not worry because worrying is an insult to God. He already know what I needed and He can provide me all the things I need and want, maybe it is just I am not in the right place and time...take heart my Belle and you will have everything you dream of...
Things are always take time to have, to hold, to meet... Maybe it is not yet the right time. I know my prayers are already enough...I prayed alot yet nothing happened. Maybe, I just think, that even if I pray for the whole day, if I am seeking at the wrong place, I will never find it. Nor maybe I am seeking a wrong thing in the right place.. I don't know.. There's many question but I dont want to seek answers anymore. I am already tired. I am already beat up but still I am trusting God that He will provide me with something wonderful. Something beyond my imagination and expectation. For now, I am really thankful for the every opportunity He has given me. For bringing me to a place I never thought I will be and to let me meet alot of people I never thought I will meet. Indeed, there's a reason for everything we experience in this life. Everything is well planned and we experience each of it so we will learn something from it and helps us to be a better person, a better individual worthy of His gifts.
Surely, I will always be grateful and happy for all my life experiences.. He never cease to teach me...and I always need to learned a hard way..
For all of this... I always need Faith and Trust in HIM and in myself...May God Bless me more..:)

Can't Fight this feeling any longer

I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
I tell myself that I can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear
And even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winters night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find
And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winters night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I can't fight this feeling anymoreI've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shoreAnd throw away the oars, forever
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymoreI've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

you...

You light up my world.. you give me a new direction..
you show me how to regain myself
you inspire me, you make everything seems clear...

I'll make sure

I'll do whatever it takes to achieve my dream...

Anyway, why I bother minding what they might say if I know myself that they hardly care about me...

Once I left, I will left for good and I will not go back until I already have what I want in my life..

I know God will help me because He knows my heart and He knows the pains and despair I am feeling right now because of a those pretensions they made...

I promise I will be better!

I promise I will not be affected anymore...

and I promise I will invest my time, money and feelings to the things and people that do worth it

and not to those people that are fleeting and pretentious...

it is you....

I have seen the other part of the world only to found out that what I'm looking for is just in front of me a long time ago...

I hope its not yet too late...

I hope I still have time...:)

realization

when i saw your picture today, i realized that it is you that i want all this time...
tell me it is not yet too late..
tell me that you still waiting for me..
i missed you
and i want to be with you again..
hope God will give me another chance
to right what i've done wrong..
hope i will have you in my life this time...:)