Am I?

I have lots of dreams in life. Some says I am ambitious. I don't care! For me, people who dont know how to dream are liken to those who are dead. Dreams awaken my soul, it helps me look forward for something better, something more exciting and wonderful. Dreams provide pavement to my goals in life. It makes me believe that I am capable of being someone, creating something, achieving wonderful peaks in life and making a difference in the lives of other people. Yeah, somehow it contradicts what I say that I want in my life. I always say that I just want to be simple.So how come I want to be simple yet I am ambitious? Let me explain. Simplicity doesn't mean that you don't know how to dream. It doesn't mean that you won't improve your life and you won't do anything. It doesn't mean that you will just sit there and wait yourself to wither and stagnate. When I say simple, I mean that I will give up the urge to stay in the competition in the corporate world. I mean that I will no longer seek for the temporary consolation. I mean that I won't give in to what the society dictates. I mean that I will turn my back to materialism, egoism and selfishness but instead do something for a cause, for humanity, for the environment. When I say simplicity I mean that I am giving up all the material things, pleasures, luxuries, shallow measurements of happiness in terms of money, possessions, positions, alliances, relationships, knowledges and finally achievements. For me, simplicity in life means achieving a more important things that matters in life. People say I am ambitious whenever I say I want to live in the mountain and help build a better community there, to serve while learning something more valuable, to educate people of whats more important in life than to pursue things that don't really matter. They call me ambitious or impossible when I say I want to revive our rivers and preserve our natural resources. They call me ambitious when I say that I want to help the poor people in the provinces uplift their lives, to teach them a lesson or two on how to make the most out of their day than to just wait for someone to give them their foods or jobs. They say I am ambitious when I say I can see a better future of my country, that we can finally enjoy the fruits of our labors and every family lives decently. They call me ambitious when I say I want to travel the world and experience life, a true meaning of life. Maybe yes, I have lots of dreams in life. Therefore, I am ambitious. But these dreams and ambitions I have are not merely for myself. I dont intend to aim it with a selfish intentions. My dreams and ambitions are not only for me. Because when I say I want to improve my life it means I also wants to improve the lives of other people. People that I don't know personally but continuously hunts me. I know deep within that I am created for something bigger, something that can bring change, a better change. I feel I have a bigger mission here on earth. It is my calling. It is what my heart and soul wants me to do. I know if I didn't listen to my heart it will always hunts me. If I refuse to go after what my soul wants, it will only bring me pain. Thats why I decided to pursue whatever dreams I have and suffer the consequences than not to go after it and regret it for the rest of my life. Whatever things I am doing right now, believe that it has something to do with whatever dreams and ambitions I have, it has some beneficial effect with all this things. I don't need to explain anything to every person I've got to meet or all the people I knew in my life because whatever it is that I am doing it is only between me and my God and my dreams link to my mission He entailed to me.

So what if I am ambitious? So what if I have alot of dreams in life? I don't care as long as I can achieve what they called "a true happiness and contentment in life" and do things that will outlasts and that will matter most in this life! Happy living! :) -belle 06/08/07 11:30 pm